So I feel happier today than what was expressed in my last couple deviations. I don't know if I'm happier because the girl I'm sorta/kinda dating came back and we sat around for a bit. Or maybe I just got sick of being upset. Or maybe I just stopped caring. I most certainly didn't stop caring, I believe I was just too busy to be upset. It feels better to be too busy to feel... I want to feel good though, not feeling at all isn't good enough. I do really like her, and I'm sure she can make me feel happy. But I need more than a single friend, or a single girlfriend, or even a single love. I need friends, real friends. Sadly I have real friends, they're just too far away, trying new and exotic drugs, dating 16 year old trash. And yet, these drug abusing, alcohol chugging, notsobright guys, are my friends. My best friends. People who I would do anything for, and people who would do anything for me. And no one would ever need to be paid back, except by the same friendship we've afforded eachother for years. There is a difference between "friends" and "best friends". Best friends once reaching that point, are never anything else, but best friends.

On another note, I'm being more discerning about whom I consider a friend.

Toodles